Verse of the Day: Help the Poor, Lend to God

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1. Lynn said:

   Please print this photo off and lay hands on it and pray for my husband and I. My husband walked out on me and left me last summer. I have been disabled since 2005, due to post polio syndrome, central pain syndrome, chronic fatigue, fybromyalgia, narcolepsy, chronic active Epstein Barr Virus, and chronic variable immunuodeficiency.. (I had polio as a child). I thought my husband was a Christian, but he told me last summer that he not only was not a Christian but that he didn’t even know if he believed in God. Since the home we shared belonged to his deceased mother and has been in his family for generations, I did not feel comfortable living there ,and also, I cannot live alone. Anyhow, he gave me a month to get out.

   My husband had been my sole caregiver for three years. I have been housebound also for three years because I cannot afford a wheel chair van. I can drive, but it is the financial aspect that prevents me from driving anyplace. I am temporarily staying with my parents, but they have made it clear that they want me out as soon as I can find a place of my own. They were abusive to me growing up and they are not much different now.

   I want my husband back. I think he decided to leave because i was holding him back from the life he thought he wanted. He wanted to live the life of a rock and roll musician (he plays an instrument) and a Christian disabled wife hindered him from living that life. I think he has a girlfriend, too, but I am not sure. He won’t even talk to me on the phone, and he doesn’t email me except for a few words. I live in poverty except for the fact that my parents home is nice. However, I must provide for myself. I live on social security, which is less than 1000.00 per month. My food stamps just ran out this month and I cannot get anymore unless I am living in an apartment. So my cost of living just increased.

   My divorce hearing comes up in January. I know that my God is the God of the impossible. He can do anything and performs miracles. I have full faith that he can save my husband and get us back together before January. I know my husband must accept Christ first, but he has heard the gospel, and I have been emailing him about the importance of accepting Christ. He knows I want him back. I have been trying not to sound desperate but to let him know that I want him back and that he also needs to be saved or he will spend an eternity separated from God and from everything that is good.

   Please pray for Richard to be saved and for Richard and I (Lynn) to reunite. Also, please pray for the restoration of my family. This has also torn apart my family. My children are divided and are estranged from me except for one of them (I have four). I am heartbroken over this. I only want my family back, but first and foremost, my husband’s salvation and the restoration of my marriage.

   I also desperately am in need of a wheelchair van. I am unable to get to my medical appointments, which are every three weeks. I have to find rides and it is getting very difficult. My son, the one who is “on my side” has been making 600 mile round trip rides to bring me to the doctors every two weeks until we got into an accident on the highway, and I told him that he was not going to be doing it anymore that I would find another way. I have a son who lives the next town over and he won’t lift a finger to help me. It breaks my heart because I don’t know why, I honestly don’t. My daughter won’t speak to me and hardly has spoken to me for years. I have seven grandchildren who I never see.

   I have told the Lord that I would give up all to serve him and maybe this is his test to see if I will. Well, I will, but if I can’t even get out of my parents home because I am financially living in poverty and don’t have a wheel chair van to transport my wheel chair, how can I be of service to Him? I am ready to leave all behind and move on, but I need wheels to move, don’t i? I am not being sarcastic, just silly. I don’t deserve anything from the Lord, I am not worthy. He is worthy to be praised, and is the God of all wonders and goodness.

   I have had a very hard life, one with child abuse both of myself and my own children by their real father (not this husband) both physical and sexual abuse, I have had breast cancer (survivor since 1993), hepatitis C survivor, I am a victim of spousal abuse both verbal and physical. I have been homeless, drug addicted, and in a psych facitlity seven times. There is not much I have not been through. But my children and I have always been close. This pulling away by them suddenly when I need them most is unprecedented and I don’t understand why. I miss them. I miss my husband. I am sick. But I love the Lord, and I worship him. I am waiting on him to deliver me. I pray he will save my husband and bring him back to me so we can serve the Lord side by side..

   November 30th, 2009 at 4:15 pm

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